V.O.ASIA

Before I came to the U.S.A, I was always expecting a wonderful environment where I could enjoy my life and also focus my mind on studies. However, that goes no farther than expectation, although I do have a nice environment.

Actually, I do know the problem with me, which is the fact that I am not able to focus my energy in study after the ridiculous GRE/TOEFL march since there used to be a similar one in history. Also I am quite willing to quit this embarrassing situation but it is too hard.

With the help of church and Sophy in Wuhan, as well as the anger from hans and elaine, I could hold my desire temporarily and thus fight for a good academic standing. So I succeeded and restart the hope of Yan.

Nevertheless, one cannot always live in a dream. When the dream is over, I had to leave the paradise and face the actuality. When I was in Logan for the second time, I found some of my good friends was no more that close to me. The very feeling of loneliness is again haunting me while Yan in Nanchang just played deaf to me.

Within only one more semester, Sophy in Wuhan also started to play deaf. After that I was just feeling hopeless.

Having experienced so much frustration, I almost forget the high expectation when I was still in Wuhan. I do want to realize that dream but I find it so hard to be that determined.